Just need to vent a little bit to feel better...
Literally every day, I check and recheck the 2019 application post on this website and thegradcafe. I know it isn't a good thing to do, but I can't help it and I know a lot of you feel the same way! It just really sucks seeing that a lot of the schools that you applied to have given out first rounds recently and you still have gotten nothing. I know I had pretty terrible mgre scores and mediocre general gre scores, but I was hoping that my CV/resume/experience would seriously make up for that. I also have a pretty good GPA (out of a billion math classes, only two slightly hurt my GPA). I also know that my recommendations were very good.
Part of me is fretting that I should have applied to more schools lower on the list (like past the 50 mark). And I wish I could have applied to more schools!! I see people applying to a million schools while I could only afford applying to 6 schools unfortunately. Yeah yeah yeah, I haven't gotten rejected from anywhere yet, which I'm telling myself is a good thing and I should stay hopeful. It's just hard. I really just want to get one acceptance, so at least I KNOW that I'll be going to grad school in the fall. Even if I only get accepted to 1/6 in the end, I'll be happy because at least I was good enough to go somewhere. I just know that if I don't get into anywhere this semester, I won't be reapplying next year.
Okay okay, vent over. Just needed to get it out of my system and I'm sure others can relate. Overall, I am super super happy for people who have received acceptances and hope everyone gets what they want!